Joplin

Since the twister and destruction in Joplin, MO has become such a huge topic, I felt sort of inspired by a comment someone wrote on Facebook to write a poem, so here's what I came up with. Enjoy.

Joplin

When it feels like your world is crumblin’ down

Someone’s home may be fallin’ to the ground

So before you go thinkin’ that you’ve got it bad

Remember that at least you’ve still got your dad

‘Cause somewhere in the world tonight

Someone’s family just lost the fight

So when you say you just don’t know how you’ll go on

Remember that they lost everything before dawn

It came so fast they didn’t have time to prepare

Most of them made it, but they were left in despair

Standing there, staring at all the rubble

Never having felt so humbled

So when you feel like you keep gettin’ knocked down

Be grateful that at least you get to go another round

Because I know they won’t even dare to whisper

About the day they lost everything to the twister

You Light Up the Sky!

So I've been going through some stuff the past 6 months and so the other day I decided to just go out and lay under the stars.

I just sat there and talked to God a little and then asked him the big question.
I said..."Am I gonna be okay?". And then decided to tack on the proverbial..."Please show me a sign if I'm gonna be okay." About a minute or so later, out of the corner of my eye, I see a shooting star. It was faint, but it was there.

My own personal sign from God that everything is gonna be okay...that I'm gonna be okay.
It was a great feeling.
A few days after that I'm watching an episode of The Hills...I know it's stupid and scripted, but for some reason I actually enjoy it. Anyway, this song comes on at the very end and I really loved it, so I looked it up like I always do (I do this A LOT with tons of songs from tv shows). It turns out it's a very new song from this band I already knew called The Afters. They aren't super famous, but they are well known...I think.
It's called "Light Up the Sky".
After really thinking about it just a minute ago and after watching a video about the meaning behind it...I think it kind of goes along with the shooting star. It's something I can listen to when I'm having those moments where I don't think I'll be okay...that it won't get better again.

Here are the condensed lyrics to the song:
"Light Up the Sky" by The Afters

When I'm feeling all alone

With so far to go

The signs are no where on this road

Guiding me home

When the night is closing in

Is falling on my skin

Oh God will You come close?

(Chorus)

Light...light...light up the sky

You light up the sky to show me You are with me

I...I...I can't deny

No I can't deny that You are right here with me

You've opened my eyes

So I can see

You all around me

Light...light...light up the sky

You light up the sky to show me

That You are with me

When stars are hiding in the clouds

I don't feel them shining

When I can't see You beyond my doubt

The silver lining

When I've almost reached the end

Like a flood You're rushing in

Your love is rushing in

(Chorus)

So I run straight into Your arms

You're the bright and morning sun

To show Your love there's nothing You won't do

(Chorus)

That You are with me

That You are with me

If you're interested, here's the link to the song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vseE3n3hLYc&feature=related

Here's the link to the video where the writer talks about the meaning behind the song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dodmTXarNFs

That's pretty much all I had to say. I just thought it was something cool to share.

P.S. I do not own any rights to the pictures, I did not take them myself, I just borrowed them off the internet. I thought they would make the story more visual.

New Camera Pictures

So I felt like posting some pictures that I've taken recently. I hope that whoever is reading this enjoys them as much as I do. These were taken at various places in Tyler. Some at the Zoo, some at my grandmother's house, some downtown, and some in my yard. Enjoy and feel free to let me know what you think.

New Friend

"When true friends meet in adverse hour;
'Tis like a sunbeam through a shower.
A watery way an instant seen,
The darkly closing clouds between."
- Sir Walter Scott

I have found a new friend.

I honestly never thought I would EVER trust someone again, but I find that I can't help it anymore than I can help the fact that it might rain tomorrow...it's something that just happens...no matter what yo do.
I forgot how exciting it is to have a new friend...a true friend.
The last few friends I had sorta fell off the face of the Earth...metaphorically speaking of course.
When you're older, new friends are fickle. They have their "old" friends. You're just interchangeable to them. I'm sick of that. I want a real friendship...and I base that on my friendship with Jesus. One of trust and honesty...love and loyalty...compassion and empathy...meaning and worthiness. They tell us to be like Jesus, to find our partner by being like the bride of Christ, but they never really talk about friendships on Earth. Why not mold those to be like ours with the most perfect creation...Jesus Christ. I don't want to be another friend in a drawer like a hair clip...interchangeable and put away until it's needed...waiting to be used again and again. I want to be worthy and I want to matter. I want to be shown empathy and I want to be shown compassion. I want someone to be loyal to me and I want someone to love me for me, quirkiness and all. I want someone to just be honest with me and I want someone I can trust with everything, including my life.

Is that too much to ask?

A Poem For A Teacher

Lost

This is a poem I recently wrote...I haven't written many poems lately...this is probably the second one, maybe the third, in the past year.
I hope you enjoy...whoever's reading this.

*I dedicate this to all those who...have been lost...are lost...or will ever be lost.*

“Lost”

I’ve always been told
To play among the stars
I always thought
There was no harm

I dreamed so big
I couldn’t see
What was really
My destiny

I was always meant
To do something good
But was it what
I thought I should

All along
I wasted time
Going after
What wasn’t mine

Because of this
I am filled with guilt
A house on the moon
I should have built

Instead I played
Among the stars
And in the end
I lost it all

don't mess with fireworks

So...here's the short version... I decided to blow up a tomato with a firecracker and have my step-brother tape it. Well besides the fact that the tomato didn't blow up and my step-brother didn't get it on tape...I pretty much jacked myself up.
The list of injuries is as follows:
bruised/scratched knee
double bruised knee
double bruised/scrached arm
bruised eye brow
bruised chin
bruised sternum
scratched hand
and lots of sore muscles
so needless to say...don't mess with fireworks
and if you're asking yourself "how did all this happen by just lighting a firework...
well here's how...
I lit the firework and tried to run for cover behind our little fence thing that surrounds our little out door patio...here is a picture..the wooden pole I hit is the one in the center...I'll explain the other stuff later...

...so anyway...I trip on these bricks that my step-dad layed out and landed on my hands and knees...skidded...thus the knee and hand injuries...hit the post face first and got some whiplash...and next to the post is a rose bush that grows massive...thus the scratches over the rest of my body...then I was wearing sunglasses and when I hit the post it banged my eye brow and bruised the bone underneath...and then there are some other injuries that I have no idea how they happened...lol
so the moral of the story is...don't mess with fireworks